Know myself through yoga.

For me, yoga is moving meditation but not exercise. To do yoga is to look at and feel myself objectively.

When I had practiced “head stand” before, I realized there were two feelings inside myself. One was I want to be able to do “head stand”, the other one was I was scary to fall down.

To be able to do “head stand”, I had to overcome the scared feeling and even though I fell down, I had to try again and again.

Fear or success? Finally I chose success. I need to face myself to progress in yoga anytime.

At today’s class, I realized an unpleasant feeling I had to admit.

The feeling was I compared myself and others. When others could do a pose which I couldn’t, I got depressed and when I could do a pose which others couldn’t, I felt superior.

I was disappointed in myself and I didn’t want to admit this feeling.

But it’s me. This worst person is me.

Although I understand nobody is perfect, today was the day I realized I am still unskilled.

 

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